Damaged...

19 days sober... emotionally broken... exhausted and frustrated... my heart devastated... abandoned by my love... and unable to even masturbate without crying... the feeling of orgasm rushing over me... reminding me immediately of my darling... my mind and body feeling as if they belong to him... my soul entirely alone... my life drowning beneath constant wondering... will i ever be able to move on... or will i be forever shattered?